Yes, We live in the North, but not so far north we should be experiencing such a winterish Spring. A child’s new red bike sits in the hall. My fixie remains in the basement, flat tires and all. Roderick still rides inside on the trainer, as he has been doing for the past five months – watching squirrels gain weight and lose it all over again. I think he is becoming their Squirrel King.
It’s getting old. Inspiration is low. Frustrations are high. There is planting to be done. A porch to inhabit. A city to be explored – on foot, on wheels, in the sunshine. Time is slow right now. Projects have ended – a house remodel, a daycare. New ones are barely creeping in – a theatre, a yoga studio. Teaching is wrapping up for the semester as well. Taxes are done. At slow times, my minds wanders. When my mind wanders I feel ineffective and irritable.
It is now I realize how much I feed on design thinking. I depend on it to be a gossamer film spinning together the divergent fractions of my life. If it is slow or stagnet, then I read less. I think less. I consume less of everyone’s and my own intellect. I miss connections. I fumble opportunities. Design thinking is not just thinking about design. It is not looking at ArchDaily for a dose of architectural stimuli. It is an approach to the everyday. A gracious, thoughtful and thought-filled living. It is being observant and of making critical connections. It is focusing, problem-solving, articulating and managing a mindfulness. It is doing, acting and creating upon that mindfulness. But…. slowness consumes me. It is as if this final freezing rain and snow has shown me that the molecules of my mind are moving slowly – slowly, as if a solid. Fuildity and gossamer connections lost. Frozen has won. For now.
We will thaw. We will play tennis and ride bikes and eventually wear sunglasses again. I will think again. Design will permeate as it always can. It is a valiant foe to the frozen north. It exists in snow, sleet, rain, sun, and wind. If we allow it. I think I just let the squirrels run off with it as they did with our sidewalk chalk.
(images: a new red bike; daycare project and and theatre remodel in collaboration with Dimitri Papatheodorou Architect)